I said go

I said go 

It's true I did

I lied to be strong

Protecting my self

Maybe I would be hurt

Maybe it was time

I fought to be safe

You were an Angel 

But still I feared

You were sweet

Always tender 

I said go 

Still I feared

I never trusted you

It's the pain I feel

Letting you go broke me

I won't stop you

I won't cry after you

Thought I knew you

It was time for gold

Your heart was pure

Your arms and eyes 

Every part of your body

I treasured every second

With you I was happy

I said go and you left

I said go 

Too selfish to realize 

I lost you before I had you

Like shadow You perished

Every time I think of you

I shiver with guilt

Owing you everything

With you I was happy

Everyday Was my joy

You made me smile

Laughter was present

Your arms were warm

Missing every second

I'm not sure really

Somehow I cared

Maybe I loved you

It's hard to tell 

 Scared to even know

Not even trying 

A mistake I did

I said go and you left

I regret every thing 

I said and did 

Stopping you was best 

Right now I hate stopping you

Forever I will cry 

My heart pleads for mercy

Like stars I keep hope

It hurts to see you smile

When you laugh and play

Being so happy with her

It hurts to see you smile

I know I said go 

Still it's hurts seeing you

Which place should I hide

I don't think it's safe

I said go and you left

It hurts to know 

I said go 

And you left 

Slondile Dlamini